Everything is Changing, Nothing Stays the Same

Even Though We're Leaving, We'll Be Coming Back Again
"Time Flies" Groove Theory

So I guess this is my end of the year wrap up blog. There's so many songs I've wanted to blog to and I have no idea why I chose this one. It's hard to believe how fast these 9 months flew by. I feel like I've sorta wasted 9 months or I feel I could've and should've done a lot more. Anyways, I'm happy to be home even though relegated to being the only child again while my sisters are living in SF and NY. But shhhh, I secretly miss SLO despite all of my complaining throughout the year. I tend to form love/hate relationships with practically everything and Cal Poly is no exception. Yeah, I still have those "what if" moments about how different my life would be if I went to another college. But I do that with every juncture in my life just because I'm curious about what it'd be like if made one slight change. With all of that aside though, I'm nervous, apprehensive, hesitant, excited, ready, enthusiastic for what's in store. Such a mixture of feelings but there's no choice but to go with the flow and enjoy the ride.

I've come to notice that I'm a goal/destination orientated person. That is, I like to get things done and over with instead of paying attention to and enjoying the process and journey. I'm one of those people that go through the motions without understanding the meaning. I think I've been doing a better job though. Spring quarter was good. I got my school work done and was able to have fun too. A mixture of work and play is always a good thing. haha There's so many things I'm going to miss. To begin with, I'm going to miss being a 1st year. For some reason, I kind of like the feeling of being naive, not knowing what's up and trying to adjust. There's only 3 years left of this and I don't want to let time race by me and have nothing to show for it. As much as the dorm life somewhat got on my nerves, I'm going to miss Yosemite. Damn those dorms were in the boonies of campus but hey I'm not going to complain anymore. Two words: College Experience. haha

I wonder how much I've changed within these past 9 months. I know I definitely have but only my friends can tell me how. Have I changed for the better? Honestly, if you ask me, I don't think I have but please feel free to prove me wrong. haha I've definitely been sheltered by my family and college has exposed me to so much. I think I've become a little bit more open and I often tend to disagree with what my mom says, but it's always been like that. haha Damn, there's so much I want to say but I don't know how to say it. Must be the combination of late night and my inability to express my feelings. haha Well, welcome Summer. I've been waiting for you for such a long time but secretly, I'm counting down the days until September when I go back to SLO.