This life is fantastic. It's easy, it's hard.

It's intense, it's sharp. And on and on and on.
"Life is Good" by DJ Deckstream feat. Mos Def



It's been hella long since I've blogged and I don't know where to begin writing. It's not like much has happened these past 3 weeks. haha, I've just been trying to buckle down and get through this quarter. Hmm, so I went to Santa Cruz 2/6-2/8. Honestly, the UCSC campus sucks but the city itself is pretty cool. Looking back, I think I made the right choice in coming to Cal Poly. I only had 3 options anyways. haha 1) SCU 2) 3/2 Engineering Program at UCSC/Berkeley (3 years at SC for a B.A. in Psychology and 2 years at Berkeley for a B.S. in Bioengineering) 3) Cal Poly. I always think of the "what if"s. There have been so many times (and sometimes I still think this) what if I went to Moreau instead of Bellarmine? My life would be so different right now; I'd have different connections, different experiences, a different group of people in my life. In a way, I feel like I got cheated in my high school experience. I didn't do shit at Bell. I just went to class and then went home, no extra-curricular activities. Pretty sad. I used to wonder if it's because I really wanted to go to Moreau or if it's just me. I have a hard time opening up to people and putting myself out there and I hate that. I'm such a shy muhfuh. haha But oddly enough, I sometimes miss Bellarmine. I miss the classes, eating lunch with all the Asians under our Asian tree, and talking basketball with my Econ teacher. haha. I don't even know where I'm going with this entry. I guess I somehow planned to tie this into the song "Life is Good"? Despite all I've been through (or I guess lack of what I've been through since I never did anything in high school, haha) I'm satisfied at where I've ended up. Life could be better but it could also easily be worse.

So I don't even know where this is going or what I really want to say, I feel like this is free prose or whatever it's called. haha Just writing from the top of my head and typing what I feel without thinking. I've had so many lows in college already, thinking about transferring, but I guess it's not that bad to be hella sad at times because that's what makes being happy and having fun hella awesome. haha. Anyways, I think I'm finally starting to warm up to Cal Poly. It took a good 5-6 months but that sure beats 3 years for me to get used to Bellarmine. hahaha. I want to get active here in SLO and join more clubs but there's still the shy part of me holding me back (random thought/song: "Pulling Me Back" by Chingy). Eff you, shy me. I can't wait til next year. PCV is gonna be bomb (hopefully I get in) and I want to join PCE, TVSA, CSA, and BMES. Basically all the Asian clubs plus the Biomed Society. haha. Why don't I do it now, you ask? I don't know, I'm still intimidated by those PCE people. haha

My thoughts are so jumbled that I'm going to read this and be like, why the hell did I even post this? But whatever. I guess I'll talk about academics since it's consuming my whole life right now. I set the goal of getting on the Dean's List this quarter but it's going to be really hard. My grades as of now are:

BMED(3): A
PSYCH(4): B+/A-
Calculus(4): A-
PHYS(4): D

Ouch. Gotta bust my ass these last 3 weeks. I can't wait for this quarter to be over and not have my Physics teacher anymore. I'm not going to blame her (entirely) for my bad grade. She IS a bad teacher but I haven't been giving my all in Physics, either. Haha, I'm so grateful for these fast quarters. It's crunch time and it's time to be clutch. 3 Midterms, 4 Finals to come. Bring it on. WHAT UP?!



P.S. Tammy, I know you're reading this. What up? Make me a dope layout for BlogSpot. Thanks.