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My Thought Process

There's so much I'd like to say to accompany this picture...

Second Wind

Friendship Games

Hmm, I have no idea what to say. I can't really put into words how fun Friendship Games was. There are some really, really crazy people in PCE but I hella love it. It makes you feel comfortable doing hella stupid stuff at Friendship Games because you know everybody else is doing crazy stuff to win SPUF. But anyways, this year's theme was Old People Party (OPP). Some of the guys shaved part of their heads so it looked like they were balding. haha We also pimped out a wheel chair by hooking up some speakers and adding a sub to that back. I gotta admit that I wasn't really feeling our theme when they first told us but after arriving at FG, our theme was pretty unique and everybody seemed to like it. We all woke up at 545am to get ready and line up to check-in. We met at the Home Depot down the street and the workers almost kicked us our because we looked hella shady. haha When we got to CSUF there were already hella schools there and UCSB was going crazy in the parking structure.

Alright, so nothing will ever compare to being at the Warriors playoff game back in '07 but FG was up there. So much anticipation leading up to FG and when it finally comes, you let out all your pent up energy and excitement in one day. haha Who knew cheering until nearly losing your voice is so fun? Anyways, we didn't do so well in the games. 4th in Groundhog, didn't even finish the Nasty, DQed in Tidal Wave, and I don't even know about Conveyor Belt and Alpine Green. haha Yup, hella sucked at the Games part of FG but were pretty damn good at the Friendship part. haha So many random, stupid, funny cheers and hella fun cheering with other schools. So many random dance parties too. PCE's hella addicted to slow jerkin', Pon de Floor, and the Yes Dance.

It was pretty cool seeing all my friends from back home but I feel bad that I barely spent time with any of them. Sorry =( I'll make it up to you guys Thanksgiving/Christmas Break!

Friendship Games 2010, I'm waiting for you.

There's Nowhere in the World I'd Rather Be

I Came Home (feat. Marsha) | Rhymefest

Damn, this was the best I could do. I couldn't find a better song. But anyways, as much as I'm enjoying SLO, I'd like a little piece of home. I've been gone for exactly one month. Homesick? Maybe. Or maybe is just that I don't really have the option to go home. I have no free weekend until Thanksgiving Break. I'm setting out what I wanted to do back in February though... slowly getting more involved. However, I need to keep school my first priority. I need to step up my game big time in Bio, Engineering Econ, and English. I think I need a pep talk from my grandma. haha I don't understand that much Ilocano but I sure as hell know that "aganawan" means "study hard" because that's all she tells me when I see her. haha

I hella miss my nephews and nieces though. My sister sent me a couple of videos of my two-year-old niece on Sunday and it made me miss all the chubbies. I'm counting down the days til break so I can see them again. (34 days!) Not to mention I miss driving my Civic. Ok, I lie, it's my sister's Civic but it's mine as long as she's in NY. haha I need to get it serviced so I can bring it down to SLO already.

I'm hella excited for so many things right now... Friendship Games, TVSA Revealing, getting a Kuya/Ate for PCE, Thanksgiving, Christmas... Anyways, I'll stop here for now. Definitely not a complete post but I'll put it up anyways.

txnguyen

this reminded me of your f*cking fried rice. ha

Pre-blogging

I seriously need to step up my blogging game up. The last time I actually blogged with my own thoughts and sh*t was almost a month ago. I've been on that re-blogging hype, ya know? haha. I hella mindlessly browse through tumblrs during my free time. Pretty lame, I know. Anyways, if you know me, I'm not a person of many thoughts or opinions but there's a lot of things I'd like to blog about. But I don't want to post one very long blog and it always takes me forever to write what I want. I also want to find good songs to blog to. So hopefully I'll be able to pull everything together and blog within the next couple of days.

Live and Learn

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people, it’s what they do about it. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you’ll see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it. I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgive by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief. I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other and just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains. I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe. I’ve learned to love and be loved. I’ve learned.

Omer Washington

They Say Your Attitude Determines Your Lattitude

I'm High As A Muhf*cka, Fly As A Muhf*cka
Brand New (ft. Kanye West) | Rhymefest

I was going to use this song lyric anyways but I found this quote that my English teacher put on our syllabus pretty fitting. I wanted to use this song just because of the title to commemorate the beginning of a new school year. haha So before I start babbling...

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is, we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past…we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. We are in charge of our attitudes." ---Charles Swindell

I thought that was a pretty cool quote but anyways this blog's almost a year old. I skimmed though my previous posts to look back on what I blogged about. I'd probably like to set half of them on private just like my xanga. haha In Feb/March I was looking forward to 2nd year. Well, this is it huh? I've learned that "there" is never better than "here." haha jk. There is some truth that when you get to where you want, that will become your "here" and you will have another "there" creating a seemingly insatiable quest for satisfaction, self realization, self betterment, happiness, whatever you'd like to call it. Although this may be a bad thing, isn't life about progress? You gotta keep it moving, complacency leads to a comfort zone/bubble that's hard to burst sometimes. Where am I going with this? IDK, ha. This probably stems through my ambitions to do more this year than frosh year.

I'm still amazed by how fast the first year flew. It feels weird introducing yourself to other people saying that you're a "second year." Dude, I miss first year! Kinda, haha. My apartment's pretty dope though, I must say. Living away from home is especially important for me because I need to learn how to be self-reliant. It'll be interesting to see what this year has in store for me. I need to get back into this blogging game. Cal Poly 09-10, what's up? There's only one thing I want to do...

The Truth Is...

-I wish Google Maps had an “Avoid Ghetto” routing option.

-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can’t wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that’s not only better, but also more directly involves me.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.

-I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need to drink to have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they’ve invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-That’s enough, Nickelback.

-I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.
-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard. This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again.

-Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.

-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really gets it. (I felt this way with Ghostbusters 2 recently).

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.

- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

- Was learning cursive really necessary?

- Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”.

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.

- My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy, bro.
- Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.

- How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?

- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”

-What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it…thanks Mario Kart.

- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever. (I haven’t washed the jeans I’m wearing since maybe July 2008).

- I would like to officially coin the phrase ‘catching the swine flu’ to be used as a way to make fun of a friend for hooking up with an overweight woman. Example: “Dave caught the swine flu last night.”

-I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I do!

- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a problem….

-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection.

-There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

-I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

- “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles…

- As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

-Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.

-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…

-My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

-The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There’s nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner.

Air Jordan I

Tempting...

Beats, Rhymes, and Life

Got U In Check - Marc Mac

Hella dope beat. It made me want to write a verse. haha!! Too ashamed to post it though.

Joke, Know, Wonder, Care

You don't know what's up if you don't agree. jk... haha

And I Wonder...

If Everything Could Ever Feel This Way Forever
If Anything Could Ever Be This Good Again
Everlong - Foo Fighters

I like to think I blew it because that makes it seem like I had a chance.

Love Fifteen

Roger Federer, you're the man. All I have to say is... how weird it must be for Pete Sampras, Serena, McEnroe, Tiger and MJ to congratulate Fed on an accomplishment he hadn't reached yet. haha

Who's House? Run's House

HAPPINESS IS A HABIT
No matter how positive you are, everything is not going to go your way.. We must be ready to make the most of every situation that comes our way. Do not let minor annoyances and problems ruin your day. The difference between happy positive people and unhappy negative people is the willingness to change and adjust our attitudes in any and every situation.... Have a positive day! :-)
God is Love
Rev Run

Pick Up Basketball

Hmm, so I played pick up basketball on Monday at the Union City Sports Center and on Thursday at EVHS. Now usually I don't like playing pick up bball because I effin' suck but both times were frickin' funny. On Monday I balled with JB and a couple of Moreau people but there wasn't much run since we showed up at 7. There was this Filipino guy wearing a polo shirt shooting around and hella people were leaving so we ended up playing 5 v 5 with him. We were trying to determine teams and he was insistent on having his whole family on his team even though they obviously didn't want that. Anyways, he talked hella trash, call that the ball was going in and brick it, throw it off the backboard and miss the follow up, and launch threes near halfcourt. haha

And at EVHS LJ, Nico, and I played some 3 v 3 with these dudes playing in Vans. Then these dudes rolling 7 deep showed up so we picked up 2 of them and played 5 v 5. LJ hella demolished them and some old black dude wearing a doo rag kept asking the score and was callin' next up. Anyways, we ended up winning so the black guy calls over his asian homies. He started doing some And 1 Mixtape Tour ish dribbling on the ground and bouncing it off people's foreheads and ish. He'd also take one hand 3 pointers in our face and sink them all the while taunting "You don't know how I do." haha Ends up this guy was coaching these Asian guys because he'd bark out commands to them and hella yell out "Get in their heads!" He basically talked trash the whole game saying "C'mon you sexy ass models." haha I want to go back and play them again. I guess you had to be there though because it doesn't sound as funny as it actually was. haha

Going to play some basketball at the YMCA in SJ tomorrow. We'll see what happens. Maybe it's where amazing happens.

Postin' It

I've been meaning to post this but I haven't had the time. I'm easily amused by stop motion, typography, and all those other artsy things. haha

Everything is Changing, Nothing Stays the Same

Even Though We're Leaving, We'll Be Coming Back Again
"Time Flies" Groove Theory

So I guess this is my end of the year wrap up blog. There's so many songs I've wanted to blog to and I have no idea why I chose this one. It's hard to believe how fast these 9 months flew by. I feel like I've sorta wasted 9 months or I feel I could've and should've done a lot more. Anyways, I'm happy to be home even though relegated to being the only child again while my sisters are living in SF and NY. But shhhh, I secretly miss SLO despite all of my complaining throughout the year. I tend to form love/hate relationships with practically everything and Cal Poly is no exception. Yeah, I still have those "what if" moments about how different my life would be if I went to another college. But I do that with every juncture in my life just because I'm curious about what it'd be like if made one slight change. With all of that aside though, I'm nervous, apprehensive, hesitant, excited, ready, enthusiastic for what's in store. Such a mixture of feelings but there's no choice but to go with the flow and enjoy the ride.

I've come to notice that I'm a goal/destination orientated person. That is, I like to get things done and over with instead of paying attention to and enjoying the process and journey. I'm one of those people that go through the motions without understanding the meaning. I think I've been doing a better job though. Spring quarter was good. I got my school work done and was able to have fun too. A mixture of work and play is always a good thing. haha There's so many things I'm going to miss. To begin with, I'm going to miss being a 1st year. For some reason, I kind of like the feeling of being naive, not knowing what's up and trying to adjust. There's only 3 years left of this and I don't want to let time race by me and have nothing to show for it. As much as the dorm life somewhat got on my nerves, I'm going to miss Yosemite. Damn those dorms were in the boonies of campus but hey I'm not going to complain anymore. Two words: College Experience. haha

I wonder how much I've changed within these past 9 months. I know I definitely have but only my friends can tell me how. Have I changed for the better? Honestly, if you ask me, I don't think I have but please feel free to prove me wrong. haha I've definitely been sheltered by my family and college has exposed me to so much. I think I've become a little bit more open and I often tend to disagree with what my mom says, but it's always been like that. haha Damn, there's so much I want to say but I don't know how to say it. Must be the combination of late night and my inability to express my feelings. haha Well, welcome Summer. I've been waiting for you for such a long time but secretly, I'm counting down the days until September when I go back to SLO.

Note to Self

Exploratorium is free every first Wednesday of the month. Must hit that up over the summer.

Love

1 Minute Painting

I stole this from Common.

BIG FAVOR, POR FAVOR

So I got this e-mail from my sister:
man i dont have a torrent downloader or whatever on my mac. im at my new apt now. can you download the ab ripper x video (i think this is only half but if you can find a whole video, cool) for me? maybe you can use it to! be a pal, al.

liezel


At first I was thinking to myself, ab ripper x? Is that some app to rip DVDs or something? Then after letting it simmer in my mind a little bit I finally realized Ab Ripper X was a workout video and that my sister indirectly called me fat. hahaha

Bacc That Mass Up

Whoa, has it seriously been exactly one year since I was sitting on the Liccardo Lawn for Baccalaureate Mass? I randomly remember getting new glasses the same day too. haha Anyways, I just wanted to post this poem they read during the mass. It really puts things into perspective for me.



"In the evening we shall be examined on love" by Thomas Centolella

In the evening, we shall be examined on LOVE.
And it won’t be multiple-choice,
though some of us would prefer it that way.
Neither will it be essay, which tempts us to run on
when we should be sticking to the point, if not together.
In the evening, there will be implications
our fear will turn to complications. No cheating,
we’ll be told, and we’ll try to figure the cost of being true
to ourselves. In the evening, when the sky has turned
that certain blue, blue of exam books, blue of no more
daily evasions, we shall climb the hill as the light empties
and park our tired bodies on a bench above the city
and try to fill in the blanks. And we won’t be tested
like defendants on trial, cross-examined
till one of us breaks down, guilty as charged. No,
in the evening, after the day has refused to testify,
we shall be examined on Love, like students
who don’t even recall signing up for the course
and now must take their orals, forced to speak for once
from the heart and not off the top of their heads.
And when the evening is over and it’s late,
the student body asleep, even the great teachers
retired for the night, we shall stay up
and run back over the questions, each in our own way:
what’s true, what’s false, what unknown quantity
will balance the equation, what it would mean many years from now
to look back and know
We did not fail.

Reemergence

I'll be back on Friday to reminisce. ha!

Problem Solved

Me: you end may 13, right?
Sister: yessir!
Me: luckyyy
Sister: why
Me: i still have 5 weeks left
Sister: enjoy it
Me: no, i have so much ish to do. i have to build a prosthetic thumb. wtf?!
Sister: haha what? how you gon do that?
Me: I DON'T KNOW
Sister: just spray paint a cheetoe puff

Momma Knows Best

Me: "Hello?"
Mom: "Hi, anak, how are you doing?"
Me: "I think I'm getting sick."
Mom: "Oh... do you feel terrible?"

As Kids We Used to Laugh, Who Knew That Life Would Move This Fast?

Family Business - Kanye West

Definitely not feeling this bi-weekly blogging schedule of been on but I've been too lazy. Not like there's much to discuss anyways. My life's pretty boring and mundane. If I were to blog more often it'd relate to school and grades. I hate how academics get in the way of enjoying college. haha Anyways, I've realized how much I miss my sisters. I miss waking up to my sister blasting N*SYNC in the morning before she went to school. Wait, did I just said that?! haha! At the same though, I've always felt pretty detached from them. They're only two years apart while I have a 5 and 7 year gap with them. For the longest time I felt like an outsider. But despite all that, I'm surprised how they've got my back even though they've been so protective of me my whole life. I had a good 2 hour long conversation last night with my sister. Felt good just telling her what's up. I don't think I've ever told her that much about how my life's going. How sad, haha. May 9, Asis kids unite! I'm counting down the days.

Start Fresh, You Don't Have To Build Stress. The Trouble's All Gone, It's a Brand New Dawn

"I Won't Let It Die" Ugly Duckling

Spring Quarter! Week 1 is done with but it felt like it lasted forever. It's only been one week but I feel like I've already been here for a month. Word on the street is that Spring Quarter goes by the quickest so we'll see if that's true. I really want it to be summer already but strangely enough, I sort of don't want Spring Quarter to end. Sometimes I complain, b*tch, or whatnot about being here in SLO but I know I'll look back and miss this. At the same time, I'm extremely excited for 2nd year. haha I can't wait to live in PCV and bring my car down. So I don't know, as usual, my thoughts are jumping around. But anyways, it's a new quarter... there's a clean slate waiting for me to tarnish. haha That was such a quick turnaround. It doesn't seem like 3 weeks ago I was locking it down studying for finals though. I'm kinda disappointed with my final grades from Winter Quarter and I get upset when my parents congratulate me on getting a C. But whatever, it's a new quarter and I'm determined to do better. Def gonna try and finish this last quarter strong but live it up at the same time. haha. Alright, must cut this short... Chem in 8 hours!

We Dream to Keep Hope Afloat

To grow with a purpose and realize the power in change
"Wings" Choice37 (Feat. Braille)

Shoot, I wouldn't be surprised if I had bipolar disorder. I've been hella happy and hella depressed the past couple of weeks. I wasn't in a great mood at all yesterday and I realized that the more time I have to think about anything and everything, the more I feel down. I can't wait to go home and clear my head. I don't even know how to write how I feel. Oh well, Physics Final in 45 minutes. I'll be back.

Ba Dunk a Dunk

Dang, I seriously don't know what type of schedule I want for next quarter. I told myself I wouldn't look up teacher ratings anymore because each time I've tried I ended up getting stuck with a subpar teacher anyways. Well, I looked up teacher ratings again. haha I love this analogy. Strand here I come, you better be a dope teacher!

K, I guess it's too small to read so this is what it says:

"WOW. I've had professors that set the bar way too high and some that have set them way too low. Strand puts it just beyond what you THINK you can do. It's like dunking on a fisher price b-ball hoop for the teachers who set the bar low. Ya, you can dunk, but it's for kids. Then you have the teachers that set it way too high and you know you will never be able to dunk, so you just sit back and shoot the jumper and hope it goes in. Strand sets the rim just out of reach. If you try really hard and you dunk, it feels extremely satisfying! I worked harder in this class than in any other class in my life and it paid off. In the homework is where you will find the hardest problems in the class. Occasionally, he will put a toughie on a test, but if you have been doing the homework, you might be able to tackle it in time on a test. The best part is that he writes the final to be an hour and a half long, so even if you are slow you will still have plenty of time. He is great at explaining concepts during lecture and is funny as well. He is really interested in what he is teaching and it shows. I learned so much and had fun doing it. Great teacher! Made me feel like I can dunk!"

Drop

The Pharcyde



First of all, this video is so insane. haha, It's so funny. They probably shot this video in one take and they were probably on something. But anyways, that's not the reason I posted it. I dropped my phone for the first time since I got it and now it's scuffed. boo. I was texting and then I just straight up dropped it. haha. And then I thought about how my mom can text now. WTF? When I went home last week my mom was like, "Hey, I taught myself to text!" and then I was like, "OK, I'm gonna send you a text then. Respond to it." So then I texted "Dad says hi to you" (or something like that) and after 2 minutes playing with the keypad my mom responds "Hi also" haha

What?

A Tribe Called Quest



I can't wait til this quarter is over so I don't have to deal with Physics until September. My teacher likes to excessively use "What?" usually in place of "umm" or she just sticks it in the middle of her sentences. I got really bored in class so halfway through the period I just started counting how many times she said, "what." In 25 minutes she said "what" 31 times. haha I'll try counting for a whole period next time.

This life is fantastic. It's easy, it's hard.

It's intense, it's sharp. And on and on and on.
"Life is Good" by DJ Deckstream feat. Mos Def



It's been hella long since I've blogged and I don't know where to begin writing. It's not like much has happened these past 3 weeks. haha, I've just been trying to buckle down and get through this quarter. Hmm, so I went to Santa Cruz 2/6-2/8. Honestly, the UCSC campus sucks but the city itself is pretty cool. Looking back, I think I made the right choice in coming to Cal Poly. I only had 3 options anyways. haha 1) SCU 2) 3/2 Engineering Program at UCSC/Berkeley (3 years at SC for a B.A. in Psychology and 2 years at Berkeley for a B.S. in Bioengineering) 3) Cal Poly. I always think of the "what if"s. There have been so many times (and sometimes I still think this) what if I went to Moreau instead of Bellarmine? My life would be so different right now; I'd have different connections, different experiences, a different group of people in my life. In a way, I feel like I got cheated in my high school experience. I didn't do shit at Bell. I just went to class and then went home, no extra-curricular activities. Pretty sad. I used to wonder if it's because I really wanted to go to Moreau or if it's just me. I have a hard time opening up to people and putting myself out there and I hate that. I'm such a shy muhfuh. haha But oddly enough, I sometimes miss Bellarmine. I miss the classes, eating lunch with all the Asians under our Asian tree, and talking basketball with my Econ teacher. haha. I don't even know where I'm going with this entry. I guess I somehow planned to tie this into the song "Life is Good"? Despite all I've been through (or I guess lack of what I've been through since I never did anything in high school, haha) I'm satisfied at where I've ended up. Life could be better but it could also easily be worse.

So I don't even know where this is going or what I really want to say, I feel like this is free prose or whatever it's called. haha Just writing from the top of my head and typing what I feel without thinking. I've had so many lows in college already, thinking about transferring, but I guess it's not that bad to be hella sad at times because that's what makes being happy and having fun hella awesome. haha. Anyways, I think I'm finally starting to warm up to Cal Poly. It took a good 5-6 months but that sure beats 3 years for me to get used to Bellarmine. hahaha. I want to get active here in SLO and join more clubs but there's still the shy part of me holding me back (random thought/song: "Pulling Me Back" by Chingy). Eff you, shy me. I can't wait til next year. PCV is gonna be bomb (hopefully I get in) and I want to join PCE, TVSA, CSA, and BMES. Basically all the Asian clubs plus the Biomed Society. haha. Why don't I do it now, you ask? I don't know, I'm still intimidated by those PCE people. haha

My thoughts are so jumbled that I'm going to read this and be like, why the hell did I even post this? But whatever. I guess I'll talk about academics since it's consuming my whole life right now. I set the goal of getting on the Dean's List this quarter but it's going to be really hard. My grades as of now are:

BMED(3): A
PSYCH(4): B+/A-
Calculus(4): A-
PHYS(4): D

Ouch. Gotta bust my ass these last 3 weeks. I can't wait for this quarter to be over and not have my Physics teacher anymore. I'm not going to blame her (entirely) for my bad grade. She IS a bad teacher but I haven't been giving my all in Physics, either. Haha, I'm so grateful for these fast quarters. It's crunch time and it's time to be clutch. 3 Midterms, 4 Finals to come. Bring it on. WHAT UP?!



P.S. Tammy, I know you're reading this. What up? Make me a dope layout for BlogSpot. Thanks.

Sending Out an S.O.S Can Anybody Out There Hear My Request?

I'm in solitude like steps on the moon. We need human contact soon, soon, soon.
"Escape Earth" - Diverse

Funny how a little bit of time and music remedy a situation. I haven't finished my Physics and BMED homework yet but I can really care less. Why should I let this get me mad when it won't even matter when I turn this stuff in on Monday? So I heard this song ("Escape Earth") on a mix a few days ago and I finally found out the name of it after three days of searching. I've been looping this song and it inspired me to blog again. haha. (I just got it 2 1/2 hours ago and already 25 plays and counting) I find it weird how hip hop can make me happy and allow me escape from reality. It's sort of like having a heart to heart talk with a close friend, that kind of feeling. I don't know if any of this is making sense at 2 in the morning but whatever.

Frustrated

I am not in such a great mood right now so I suggest you stop reading because all I'm gonna do is rant. All this school work is making me pissed off. I have Physiology homework for BMED and the guy expects us to make concept maps about vasodilation, vasoconstriction, and the control of angiogenesis when he did a really crappy job of explaining what the hell those are. I spent a good hour and a half trying to figure out what these were but nothing online helped me do the homework. I also have to do this worksheet for Physics which is supposed to be done with a group. But my groupmates are so fucking lazy to meet up this weekend so now I'm stuck doing it by myself. What the fuck... Whatever, just gonna half ass that since they didn't do shit. I need to calm down...

MLK Weekend

So a week has already passed (very quickly) but I guess I'll still blog about that weekend, briefly.

Friday: TVSA Movie & Dessert Night: it seemed like all that everybody brought were cookies and ice cream. haha We watched Kung Fu Panda and then post festivities...

Saturday: Karen's parents came down for her birthday and brought a bunch of us to CPK. Went to field day after where we played Capture the Flag for 30 min and then Football for nearly 3 hours. I was sore the following days. haha. At night we went to dinner at Shin's Sushi for Karen's birthday and they had this really corny thing where they'd turn off the lights, turn on some disco lights, play corny music, and take a picture of you holding up a picture frame to your face. We didn't know what to do after so we spent 30 minutes driving around SLO figuring out what to do. We finally decided to rent and watch The Bourne Supremacy.

Sunday: Didn't really do much during the day. Pretty much just stayed in and watched football. I think? There weren't any food place open on campus so I had to walk to PCV where all the 2nd years live, twice. haha Kicked it at Tower 3, watched the last 1/3 of Shallow Hal and fell sleep watching Snatch. haha

Monday: Libraried it up for like 5 hours and that was pretty much it. haha. Thank you MLK for no school and more study time.

Edit

More mindless and random stuff:

During my Psych lecture I overheard a bunch of white guys talking about NWA and discussing who was in the group like Dr.Dre, Eazy-E, Ice Cube, etc. Kinda made me laugh inside. haha

Later that day during Psych discussion my teacher was telling us the purpose of the hippocampus. She told us an easy way to remember it is the "4 F's":
1. Feeding
2. Fighting
3. Fleeing
4. Sex
Haha, if you don't get it at first, don't worry. It took me a minute to realize it.

My BMED teacher made us attend this presentation because they were opening a new QL+ Lab (Quality of Life Lab) to help injured veterans and these two alumni were talking to each other and conversing and whatnot. Somehow, the conversation gets to the point where one of them mentions that he once made a bumper sticker that says "Engineers make things; Industrial Engineers make things better." And then they start hella laughing. ....??? haha

Gift of Gab

Random stuff before I forget. Hopefully I can post more later.

Random quote from girl in BMED: "I feel like an animal. All I had to eat this weekend were berries and nuts."

This is very bad of me, but I'm somewhat happy that the people in my Physics class are just as lost and confused as me. My teacher was trying to explain motion in two-dimensions but her thick accent coupled with her habit to was "vhat?" (yes, no typo, I meant to put a V) lead to a terrible learning environment.

I found a bunch of urinals on campus that don't use water to save water usually wasted when there's a flush. In my opinion, that's taking "green campus" too far because it smells really bad. haha, sorry if you're eating while skimming this.

I'll blog about MLK weekend later.

Cha Cha Cha Chia

Hmm, so I'm contemplating growing out my hair (partly because I don't want to go get a haircut while I'm her in SLO and partly because Gabe is considering growing his out to get cornrows during summer. haha!) Anyways, there's only been two stages of my life where I haven't had short hair. The first stage was Pre-2nd grade where my mom always used to part my hair. haha The second stage was Sophomore year in High School where I planned to grow out my hair and eventually get it permed so it'd be afro-like. Not surpisingly, I miserably failed and now everytime I look at my license I'm reminded of why I keep my hair short. But, I'm willing to try again... so should I? haha

Late Night With Who?

[or with whom... if you're a grammar police]

As much as it sucks that Conan's leaving late night, at least Jimmy Fallon is replacing him. I hella miss Jimmy on SNL. Anyways, I can't wait until March 2nd because of him and his hella dope house band. haha



Jimmy Fallon X The Roots
Woohoo!

The Pick Up Artist

Terrible pick up line...
Setting: waiting for Physics class to start. Girl in front of me has an empty seat to her right, guy approaches...

Guy: Hey, is anyone sitting here?
Girl: You are.